Pain rolls in with the darkness.

It's 6:53 pm Wed. I just got out of a nice hot bath with Epsom salts and let me tell you.... it works. I need as much "feeling better time" as I can get because I know what is on it's way. When the pain comes it's like watching the dark roll in. The thing is.. if you are afraid of the dark, you wont be able to make it till the lite. I know it's hard to not keep thinking "what will tonight bring? restlessness, leg and back pains, headaches, the want to keep repositioning yourself for comfort that never comes. sweats from hell??" but you have to stop thinking that way. When you think that way it just feeds your pain and restlessness. You have to think "what good things will tonight bring?" like when you can find that one sweet spot and the pain calms for a minute. It sounds silly but it is working for me. I am finding that so much of this process is such a mental fuck over. You have to find the things that work for you that will occupy your mind. The restlessness is starting up pretty good now so I am going to go and practice what I preach.