No rest for the wicked

Well it's 2:14 pm Wed/mar/24th. I just got up from what I was hoping could call a sleep...LOL yeah rite. The pain all came back and brought it's friend RESTLESNESS..... Rite now I have cramps in my stomach, my hips are still hurting, my calves are even aching. My headache has gone but I'm sure it will be back later. This is a huge mental battle but you have to grit your teeth and bare it. You have to remember that you have gotten this far and your not going to let anything fuck that up. I think a hell of allot of what is going on in my mind is from all the sleep deprivation. Your going to think that you can't do this more then a couple times lol more like a million times but don't listen to all of that shit going on in your head. Yes this is hard but being on those pills is allot harder. Think of everything that they have taken from you and how bad you want it all back. You have to say in your mind "I can do this" then think about why you want to do it...that is a huge part of this for me anyways. This is just how I'm trying to get it done. If something else is working for you then that's awesome. I also do allot of reading and movies at night to keep my mind busy. There is nothing worse then laying there in pain and your mind is doing a freak out. I do wish the pain in my legs would just fuck off. When I get like this, I try to get up and move around. I don't move much but it's enough to get my mind off of the pain in my legs. I am also still slamming a ton of water...great idea. It saves a bunch of extra pain and bullshit as far as I'm concerned.