Fucking crazy

It is 4:53 am on Wed morning. I thought I was going to have a half ass sleep tonight but guess what....I was wrong. The leg pains and restlessness is back. My stomach pains are getting a little worse too. I just want to go the fuck to sleep without waking up 10 minutes later, in pain. I am glad I am all alone rite now because my anger level is through the fucking roof. Tonight sucks but in a different way. I feel like freedom is rite there but than the pains and all of the other shit come back in shorter intervals. Which is really upsetting because ..you get to fall asleep for ten minutes or so and because I haven't slept in so long. I fall into a pretty deep sleep in ten minutes. Then I am woken up because of aches and pains. I just wish it would all go away soon because this is fuckin crazy!!!!!